whimsical reality

Test #2

This is a test of a new programme! Ignore!

So, as part of the iPlan 2009, I've picked up my pencil again and this year, i'm going to try to move from doodles to proper sketches and stuff (you can only draw so many spirals and trees before you want to tackle more difficult stuff).

As part of that, i really really want to learn how to sketch faces (i can handle most other parts, but faces always elude me). I know using a grid is cheating, but hey, i gotta start somewhere.

And points to anyone who can guess who they are!

Have started the habit of journalling more often again, but recently have been a lot more graphic than texty...

anyway just thought i'd post a few up here

From the night me & mark was chilling with vanessa at her school

From Random Sketches

Oh vey, a stressed out stream of conscious entry during last year's fashion show

From Random Sketches

cuz love hurts, but is sooo worth it

From Random Sketches

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For those who aren't mac users, here's a great reason to switch. I just installed iPhoto '09, with FACE RECOGNITION SOFTWARE!


Basically, it scanned each photo for faces, and if there's a face already in the database, it prompts you with a suggestion of who that might be (in this case Jay!). If there's no suggestion, you can input the name directly!

From Screen Grabs

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Anyway as I went through all my photos, I realises what a photobug I am. Nov 2007 to present day, i have roughly 3400 Pictures.

But as I tidy up the collection, marking the best shots, renaming events, adding names to faces and deleting terrible pictures, I can't help but reminisce. All the places and people who are no longer in my life on a regular basis, all the people who seem to be your best friend for the season. Looking at a lot of these pics, you tend to feel how transient life can be, all those good times that will never be again.

I don't know why I felt so depressed when I look and long for those times again. Was I happier then as compared to now? Were they truly better times or am I just looking at them through rose-tinted glasses of nostalgia?

I knew the intellectual thing is to realise that good times, good friends and everything else is transient. Like the song from Ave Q "For Now" says that we should find peace with the nature of life that everything is for now and that we shouldn't sweat over it.

But like all things, what the head knows and what the heart feels don't necessarily match up. I really do long for those times that went past and I feel really annoyed I didn't take more pics in 2008, especially all the events i helped put together.

But as I slowly got closer to the more recent events, I started to feel a lot better. I mean, while all these great times were past, I was still creating more memories and more events, and they were just as good, if not better. The best part was also seeing all those people who are still in life, who still appear in my albums.

So you know what? The best is yet to come :)

Friday night, February the 13th, Valentines Day Eve.

I decided to give him a little surprise by taking him to the night safari. I know it sounds cheesy and a little touristy, but hey, we like doing slighty shmaltzy stuff k?

And No, this was not a valentines day thing, not officially anyway. It's just that we haven't spent a great deal of time just the two of us lately, and i've been thinking of a really nice date for a while, and it just so happened to be valentines.

From Night Safari

Relationships are tricky, and so far, this has been the most trickiest relationship i've had to handle. But he's also the most worth it :)

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The immortal Dame Shirley Bassey!

You have to watch her "caress" her big ol' bling bling... unbelievably camp!

So I'm in NUS today... but not as a student.

Mark was nice enough to bring me along for his classes so I can get an "academic" warm up before i head to school either in March or August, and oh man, i'm itching to start school again!

Currently, here are my options open to me.

a) Enrol to local Curtin University in March to study Marketing and Public relations. (I have the option of going to Australia to finish my course at any time).

b) Enrol to local Curtin University in July. HOWEVER, this would allow me to see if NUS or NTU would take me in to study communications. Chances of getting into a local uni isn't great though (i have a crap GPA from poly). I'm going to try to get testimonials from ex-employers though.

How? Opinions people! should i just start school earlier and possibly waste a semester in Curtin if i get in to NUS or NTU? or should i just wait it out?

For those of you who have wondered where i’ve been, well, I got caught up in a job working for someone who, at one point, i wanted to be. But things change, as they will, and for reasons too politically-incorrect to put down in a public forum, i’ve decided to leave the company.

What does all this mean? Well for one, I’ll be free to handle new projects (including queercast again), and generally I’ll no longer be the scape-gay* for the company. I’ll also be going back to school this year! The where and when’s are still being sorted, but they’ll be firmed up soon.

What I can say, however, is that it feels great. Don’t get me wrong, I do question myself whether it was the right thing to do and I am scared and worried about my finances. But, after some soul-searching and speaking with various friends and colleagues, I feel more confident that it was the right move to make.

So expect small updates as they come, like recently Mark** and I took a well deserved trip to Hong Kong to get away from it all and also to visit Daniel Tung, whose been up there for a few months working.

Oh and to all my friends who I’ve been neglecting, I miss you and coffee soon. Love & Peace.

*Like a scapegoat, but with much better fashion sense
** AKA “Bunny”, “Boo”. “Munch”, “My boyfriend”

Down With Gay Pride!

Yeah you heard me right! DOWN WITH GAY PRIDE!

Now wait, before you start hurling handbags at me, let me explain. I'm still an unabashed flaming queen and I don't think that will be changing anytime soon. Times are changing in Singapore and the recent booking reading by Johann Lee (author of peculiar Chris, Singapore's first gay novel) made me realise how far we've come thanks to the courage of the writers, artists, politicians and activists that have fought so that we needn't be ashamed.

But with all good things, gay pride has taken on an ugly side.

Pride, noun, The quality of having an excessively high opinion of oneself.

The terms "heterophobe" and "gay elite" are unfortunate result advances in gay rights. How many of you have pointed at a jersey wearing jock and scoffed? How many of you have laughed at conservative Christians? How many times have you refused to listen to someone we call a homophobe?

So in 2008, I say down with gay pride. It's time we introduce a little humility into our community. And maybe if we put aside that pride and make a little effort to understand others, they'll put aside theirs and make an effort to understand us.

Peace!

*ahem* Ladies and gentlemen, presenting Velma Kelly (aka "oddian") in an act of desperation...

ok musical theatre reference aside, queercast has been nominated for best local site! please vote for us! please? with sugar on top? PRETTY PLEASE!? I NEED VALIDATION!

heee love ya'll

Go vote here

http://www.fridae.com/aelist/

What a weekend!

It was World Aids Day Weekend, and as being your activist I just HAD to attend stuff right?

AFA Aids Awareness Walk!


ST James Fabulous Sunday!


Me and Em at One Seven!

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Pictures from Bernice's / Ben's party... the heels are off and Bernice is now officially Ben now.

What can I say? Bernice has always been the epitome of class in a drag queen, she never fails to make a mox regular like me feel welcome!

So to Bernice, thank you for being such a class act, thank you for daring to drag, thank you for being you. And though we'll miss bernice, i'm looking forward to getting to know Ben!

oh and thank you to daniel for being such a sweetie to drive me around picking up my costume and thanks to MISTEVIOUS for doing my make up! Girl, you are a QUEEN!

To Koey (aka runecircle),



I've known you for close to 5 years now and you've seen me through 3 relationships, 2 years of Poly and 2 years of army. All that time you've never failed to be an amazing friend.

Getting an sms from you always makes me a little happier and I am so thankful that I call you friend!

So for all the rest reading this, you WILL send massive amounts of hugs, well wishes and love to KOEY now.

Mwah, happy b-day Ko Ko Beans.

Love,
Ian

(p.s your present is still wif me)

As some of you guys know, I'm out of the Christian Closet. Below I showcase why, despite my orientation and it's implications when mixed with the Christian Faith, I still love the people from my cell group.

It was 2 people's birthdays and one of our members was flying back to China to work, so it was a rather bitter sweet celebration. These people are not people with whom i would normally hang out with, but there is a lot of love between us all.

So yeah, LJ friends, meet church friend!

Your name: Ian
Four words: Indignant, Introverted, Irrelevant, Id
State/country: Ireland
Boy Name: Ivan
Girl Name: Ivy
Occupation: Interrogator
Something you can wear: Inner-shirt
Something found in a kitchen:
Something you shout: iiiiieeeeee!
Something you do at school: Investigate
Name of an animal: Iguana
Name of a drink: Ice Berg (Vodka on the rocks)
Name a holiday: India day (?)
Name a body part: Intestine

heeee this was fun!

It's seeing things like this that makes me keep going a little more.

peace ya'll

Me and Aze are no longer together.

He says he needs to give his 100% for the next phase in his life when he quits his job and goes back to full time studies. We talked, I cried, and i asked if removing the financial demands, whether he could still give his all for his studies while still going out with me. He told me no.

My head understands but my heart still hurts like hell.

Good night.

Hilarious Scary Mary Preview!

Halloween pictures! I won first prize with the other vampires that night... $1000 of facial treatment divided by 3 ppl!

Had a blast with the friends... and i've already started planning next years costume... mwahahahaha

in other news... i'll begin posting regularly again soon after i finish moving house... it's a traumatic thing moving house... i HATE living out of boxes!

stay tuned for when i throw my house warming!